Cuma Curhat

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broken heart, broken hearted, lesson learned, life, Love

Kayaknya malam ini aku masuk kedalam fase “butuh menulis supaya lebih waras”. Entah rasanya kayak ada yang aneh aja. Sudah sampai pada titik jenuh WFH karena tugas yang nggak jelas dan sistem yang rempong. Mau apa-apa stuck. Rada gajelah pokoknya. Semangat menurun. Solusinya untuk bagian ini mungkin dengan pembagian tugas yang lebih jelas kali ya, dan deadline. Yang mana eijk adalah deadliner parah jadi bikin atau dibikinin deadline itu cukup membantu.

Tapi sebenernya masalah kejiwaan yang rada-rada terganggu adalah karena kubaru nemu suatu laman microsite yang mau dibaca kok bikin emosi jiwa, nggak dibaca kepo. Tapi intinya, meski sudah 2 tahun lebih berlalu, masih ada nyeri yang terasa.

Selalu munculah pertanyaan, kok bisa… Jadi manusia kok bener-bener nggak punya hati, g punya otak kayak gitu…

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You are the reason

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daily life, family, lesson learned, Love, Son, sweet song, you are the reason

Apalah ni gw bahasannya lagu-lagu mulu.

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Cuma emang bener adanya when hearing one particular song will bring one particular feeling or memory. Sudah sering sih saya nulis soal ini. Mungkin karena memang pada dasarnya saya juga termasuk audio person—selain strongly am a visual person—jadinya lagu dan music benar-benar langsung berhubungan dengan kontak mood, feeling dan memori saya.

my emerging love for Sashimi

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culinary, Love, sambal dabu-dabu, sashimi, sashimi salmon

Assalamu alaikum wr wb,

Sebenarnya keinginan untuk mencoba makanan mentah ini sudah terbersit sejak lama Curiosity yang membuncah. Cuma saya ini orangnya agak konservatif, jadi awalnya nggak terbiasa sama yang nggak biasa.

Ketika bertemu dengan teman-teman yang suka banget sushi dan sashimi, eh saya hamil, jadinya g bisa ikut menikmati. Kemudian Apalo lahir dengan membawa turunan alergian ya sudah, hampir 1.5 tahun saya menghindari makan seafood secara umum. Akhirnya belum ada kesempatan untuk mencoba.

​Call Me Mother

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Art of motherhood, call me mother, family, kdrama, korean drama, lesson learned, lesson learnt, life, life lesson, life story, Love, mother, motherhood

The main casts and their complicated relationships

not a drama review, it is a personal lesson learnt.

Early of this year, one of my inner k-drama circle bestie recommended a good drama that she acclaimed I had to watch, because: 1. It is Lee Bo Young’s drama, which is usually very good, 2. I love any thriller, tear jerker, and emotion juggler kind of drama. And this drama did not disappoint me. And 3. This was not the reason that my friend suggested, but I found it my self, after episode by episode. I learnt so much from the story, the characters, which I could relate so much: being a mother is kind of a conscious decision that will change yourself for a lifetime.

Ap’s bday bento and cake

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Baking, bento, Birthday boy, birthday cake, cooking, family, Family tradition, homemade, Love, nasi kuning, Oreo cake, Son

Assalamualaikum wr wb.

Hello the good readers, hope you are all healthy and happy. Di rumah pada tepar, my baby is positively diagnosed with typhoid fever setelah hampir seminggu ngak nguk rewel nggak jelas. Remember my last post? Kemarin malam panasnya memuncak menjadi 39 derajat dan akhirnya ibuk cuss bawa ke DSA langganan–baru sebulan lalu dikunjungi dengan keluhan demam tinggi juga. Kemudian periksa darah lengkap dan positif ada bakteri Salmonella. Hiks deeek, kamu suka mungut-mungut sembarang masuk mulut siiih…

Alhamdilillah malam ini udah turun demamnya, dan lumayan nyenyak tidurnya, hiks ibuk nggak ronda insyaAlloh malem ini 😭.

Tapi postingan ini bukan soal itu–yailah bahasanya,

heart to heart

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Art of motherhood, beautiful life, daily life, lesson learned, lesson learnt, life, life lesson, life story, Love

Assalamualaikum wr wb.

Mungkin kedengarannya simpel ya, tetapi for me at this moment hal ini merupakan sumber kebahagiaan saya yang besaaarrr banget.

Jadi ceritanya semalem anakku rewel berat. I bet he trully understand what’s his Momma felt. Saya, katakanlah baru menerima berita besar, yang tentunya nggak enak, dan otomatis bikin perasaan kayak diudek-udek pake spatula, dan jujur secara psikologis, saya sedikit terguncang. Meskipun sebenernya cepat atau lambat akan tiba juga beritanya.

Long story short,

when

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daily life, lesson learnt, life lesson, Love

When you could not retain your anger,
rest of the matters are just complete disasters.
When you can’t value the things precious around you,
nothing really come into you.
Again.

 

#reallyselfnote

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16/06/2016

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friendship, lesson learnt, life, Love, romantic, sweet memory

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16.06.2016. Happy Birthday to me. 

it is where I belong

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daily life, friendship, home, life, Love, poem, poetry, romantic

it is where I belong

I, almost certainly say Pati is my wonder place,
where I could rest all my anxiety and stress

but Jayapura is always there,
where I store those happiest childhood memories ever

then, Yogyakarta will always be my favorite,
no matter how far I’ve gone it always be home

still, Bogor is where I’ve rooted for so long,
where I found friendships, love and all what could come along

and then again, now Jakarta is where I stand,
with its numerous chances, it gives me spaces
to aspire, to dream,
and to be dare facing what life could bring

 

14/06/2016 two more days to be exact 27. Haa. Tell me more!
cheers,

atviana

Perfect and Imperfections

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contemplation, daily life, life, life lesson, Love

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Life is not as perfect and beautiful as your mind could imagine and maybe your life is just much-much better than what people’s living out there—or maybe not that far, your closest one.

I am in the middle of huge contemplation. Since you know, I am in the midway of decision making process for a very important phase of my life. Yet the facts and circumstances that encountered my direction just slapped me casually right in the face.